New Music Tuesday and Peace

I am obsessed with music.  Not that I play any kind of instrument, nor can I sing or keep any type of tune.  I did play the saxophone for a few years a long time ago.  I am happy appreciating others with the passion, drive, and talent.  As I have aged, my music tastes have changed quite a bit.  I was a child of the 80s, and of course that meant metal, glam, and hair bands.  Oh, to look back now, and wonder, and laugh.

These days, dance, electronic, ambient, and classical fill my ears and bring peace and calm.  Most of the music lacks lyrics or singing, thus allowing the imagination to transport the mind and body to another world, to another time, and fill in the spaces.

But there are always times to retun to my roots, and today that is the latest release from Black Sabbath, titled “13″.  At the same time, I downloaded a release from Skuli Sverrisson, titled “Seria II”.  He is an Icelandic composer and bassist.  This album features Hidur Gudnadottir, Olof Arnalds, among others.

A special thank you to Summer for the following award.

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Mt. Rainier 2013 – Packing

With less than 3-weeks before flying to Seattle, I started to pack and review all of the required and recommended gear.  Good thing as I think the harness I have is too small when taking into account the extra layers and bulk at the higher elevations.  Everything from the provided list is in the photos below, except the parka which would have taken up most of the image.

UPDATE 06/08/13 – Ordered a Black Diamond Couloir harness that should fit better and have a larger range of adjustments, especially through changing layers.

UPDATE 06/08/13 – Switched the crampons I will be taking from the clip to the strap version of the Black Diamond Contact crampons.  My size 12 boot (La Sportiva Nepal Evo) was not fitting very well, and strap has a nicer fit and more clean system for adjustments, and being able to leave the crampons on the boots while taking the boots off.

I’m getting more anxious and excited each day, but also keenly aware of every ache and pain, making sure I am ready physically and mentally for the challenge.

Life Lessons – Lloyd Skelton

I wrote this awhile ago, but have been thinking about the past, where I have come from, how I got here, and the help along the way. A friend of mine, who I met at an architecture form we both worked at, was last seen on June 4th, 2005. He was planning to kayak and hike in the Boundary Waters Canoe Area (BWCA) in northern MN. While I did not know him very long, some things I learned are still materializing as lessons and reminders. It is fascinating to realize later in life, the subtle words and advice we glean from others, even when we are not aware of it at the time or may not have been listening.


This memorial will be as much about Lloyd as what I have taken away from this event. I first had the privilege to meet Lloyd in 1994 when I started work at a downtown architecture company. I was new on the block, still going to school, trying to figure out where to begin my career. I felt Lloyd was different than most “computer” people. He was not stressed, pulling his hair out, trying to meet deadlines. There was something very peaceful in his personality and the way he interacted with people. He was easy to get along with and had many experiences to share.

After some time, I started to look up to Lloyd more and more. We went to breakfast a couple of times at one of his favorite hole-in-the-wall cafes and talked about anything and everything. Eventually, I started to learn from Lloyd and move my career into new directions. Lloyd got me started in software development and showed me the ropes. He was always there if I had any questions. He was a true mentor and friend.

I regret not having much contact with Lloyd since leaving that company in 1996. The last time I saw or talked to Lloyd was January 2002 at a party for a mutual friend. He was the same Lloyd, a little more grey and a little wiser.

What I will remember the most and hold dear to heart is that Lloyd worked to live. He did not live to work, and this is very important. Since I first heard about him missing and now the reality that he will not be returning to us, I have done much soul searching. I feel too much of my live is spent working and stressing about things we cannot control and that may not add much meaning to our lives. Our time here is short and my time here is short. I have spent considerable time thinking about what I can do to make my life more meaningful and push any remaining years I have to the limits. The ultimate sin we can commit is regret. Regretting that we did not love enough, that we did not experience enough.

I have Lloyd to thank for opening my eyes.

Rest in peace my friend.

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Stone Path Review – Summer 2013

We are less than 6-weeks away from the next issue of Stone Path Review – www.stonepathreview.com

This issue is shaping up nicely and will focus on photography art, including an an interview with a photographer, as well as a handful of awesome poems.

As we have an open submission cycle, please visit our website and submit your work for possible publication.  As always, we never charge reading fees, and you have the chance to see your work in print as well as the website.

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Events and Cool Stuff

An upcoming literary event and some cool websites to checkout.


The summer release party for Lief magazine is June 2nd.  More information at http://www.mfinley.com/lief/
“Like a rocket in your waistcoat — come hear Heather Beatty, Barry Blumenfeld, Rich Broderick, Sharon Chmielarz, Maryann Corbett, Norita Dittberner-Jax, Michael K. Gause, Jeanne Lutz, Diane Jarvenpa, Tim Nolan, Kevin O’Rourke, Yvonne Peralta, Keith Willenson, Klecko & Finley perform LIVE at the Subtext party for LIEF Magazine, Sunday, June 2 at 4 pm — Western & Selby in St. Paul. PLEASE SHARE THIS WITH YOUR FRIENDS, and invite them to share it with theirs. Our goal is to have a fun afternoon and sell some books for Subtext.”


Check out the nature photography of Ben Coffman – http://www.bencoffmanphotography.com - who will be featured in the upcoming Summer edition of Stone Path Review.


Check out the adventures of Kyle Miller as he split-boards the Cascades – http://www.whereiskylemiller.com

Changes

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A while ago I changed the name of this blog to “Senzing Zen”.  I thought it had a cool ring to it, and tried to bring some focus to my goals and purpose here.  After some thought and soul searching, I feel the name is inflated and a bit egotistical.  My journey of discovery is in its infancy, the path still blurry, and the wonder still building.  So, I have renamed this blog and the URL and domain name to simply William Ricci – www.williamricci.com

This also combines two other websites into this one and becomes a portal of sorts to writing, editing, technology, nature and other things of interest.  At the same time I will be moving the Mountains and Ice material to its own separate site to be located at Host Gator.  The URL and domain name will be www.mountainsandice.com.  This is the beginning of an idea I have been pondering that I hope to expand upon.

With less than 4-weeks to go until Mt. Rainier, eyes and focus now turn from the ground at my feet, to the 14,411 foot peak beneath lenticular clouds.

Beyond Words

How best to spend the evening when the girlfriend is out of town in Detroit? With brinner of course.

On a serious note: I am without words and helpless. Regardless of belief or who we pray to, fellow human beings, including children, were in the wrong place and became victims of nature’s most powerful force. Tornados scare me to death and the photos and videos being shared take my breath away, leaving an empty pit in my stomach. What to do in these times? I trust the American Red Cross - http://www.redcross.org to take care of people in these tragedies.

Early Summer Morning

As a thunderstorm approaches from the west, I listen to various bird calls such as the robin and oriole. As more lightning flashes across rooftops, and the thunder becomes more immediate, their calls quiet. Soon, the soundscape is replaced by heavy raindrops blanketing streets, patios, and window screens with water. Further plunged into the storm, we relish the sweet moisture and this gift from nature.

Summer is finally here in MN and with that are thunderstorms. Thankfully, nothing severe, for now, but a gullywasher as older meteorologists used to say on the TV.

I’ve been organizing my summer reading list and hope some of this makes a dent in the writing funk I have been getting too comfortable and cozy with.

I recently started reading “The Wolf’s Tooth: Keystone Predators, Trophic Cascade, and Biodiversity” by Cristina Eisenberg. As I get further into this interesting read, I will post more thoughts here.

Other books:

1. Mount Rainier: A Climbing Guide
2. The Boardman Tasker Omnibus
3. Cultivating the Empty Fields
4. Airmail: The Letters of Robert Bly and Tomas Transtromer

Poem – Crowd gathers in a cold city, in February

A slow sunrise
behind rooftops and elm.

Winters breath across
a frozen lake.

Flock of birds heading east
near silence their cry.

Airplanes shadow across
the stone bridge.

A crowd gathers in line
for coffee and doughnuts.

A child passes on a
rusted red bicycle.

A few people turn
and watch him

ascend the hill
and disappear over the top.

Poem – Into the Wild

I stand…

Atop the snow-covered mountain
above the tree line
the valley split and pocked
by spring fed river.

Miles in every direction
other mountains rise to
meet the cloud deck and beyond
toward the sun, heaven.

Into this space
I have travelled
following raw instinct
and primal energy.

Feelings deep within
I do not fully understand
even a name is elusive
and to fight further isolates.

I watch…

Sunrise and sunset dance
with the moon beneath
star strobe-lights and the
wavering green veil.

If this is meant to be
if this is home
if this is the field to cultivate
I have finally found myself.

Winter Forever?

An early morning trip north, yielded a few surprises – It can snow in May in MN! Ice pellets and snow flakes dotted the semi blue and grey sky above the tallest of the pine trees. Meanwhile, our clothing was being attacked by deer and wood ticks. We recorded the first snow fall in October and now May marks the 8th month we have had some snow.

As I have gotten a few years older, my favorite season has shifted from fall to winter, much to the dismay of everyone else who reminds me that summer is slowly becoming a season of two months.

Winter is the season of awareness. It is when everything becomes brighter, and the true self and being emerge or are revealed. It is the season where we turn inward, to look for warmth and comfort within. We become more aware, with sharper senses, we see the outlines of trees against the blue backgrounds; we see the moose tracks carrying further and deeper into the woods; we realize the quite solitude of mountain peaks overlooking valleys and the distant howl of coyote or the growl of a circling raven.

Winter reveals more of the delicate balance of animals, vegetation, humans, and role each of us play. Survival instincts become second-nature, and beings rely more on themselves to emerge on the other side of the mountain pass.

Time

sunset-clouds1Where has time gone?  While I know time itself does not change, only our perception, I must have been asleep for a few days.  It is already May and I have not really written a poem or prose in a couple of weeks.  I have spent some time in quiet reflection of my past and certain experiences that have greatly impacted and provided material with which to grow.  Any writing from that may end up here or elsewhere, depending on how personal it becomes.

I finally wrote something last evening, and here it is, in bits and pieces, some fragments, with a loose thread tying them together, the stepping stones of a larger journey.


With each rain drop
upon my naked body
and mind with
outstretched arms
in the middle of the
field one more shred
of the previous being
peels away.

How much longer can
the self endure the space
and growing distance to the
true being?

The struggle within intensifies
with each passing day the
debris and clutter build,
compact, become a stronger
barrier, with each passing day.

What will it take to
wake up, spew forth
words and actions -
enough is enough.

The death suffocated
through loss of hope,
of purpose, of connecting
beyond the self, inflicts
greater damage to the spirit
and the psyche, carried
forever, through subsequent
passages of time.

A spiritual death suffocated
each day my whole being
is repressed, stumbling,
aimless, lost, through the
empty field I spent
decades clearing and cultivating
only to become overgrown,
fragments of the anger,
and selfishness spit out
of the wailing person on
their knees,
in a manner of minutes.

I write these words in the midst
of a struggle between my spirit
and the pain engulfing my head,
hands holding the skull together,
press on throbbing temples,
eyes closed shut – spinning
across the empty room, the
room moves, upside down, left
becomes right, light becomes
fuzzy darkness and I fell into
a heap.

There are answers out there
to these questions, there are
answers out there, that I have
previously known, to questions
I have not yet asked

In the lowest elevations the sun is not
directly seen, but we see the light
as a guide, a marker, that we placed there.

2013 Poetry Month #12 – John Haines

I had hoped to showcase poetry each day for National Poetry Month, but other obligations diverted my attention and time.  For the last day of April, I have chosen poetry from John Haines – a writer whose work and style, along with his time living in Alaska, really influenced and changed my own style, and in some ways, paid the foundation for a change of direction in my own life.

I was introduced to John Haines in a poetry class I took at the Loft Literary Center in Minnesota, by Thomas R Smith.  For that, I will forever be indebted to him.


These selections from from the collection “The Owl in the Mask of the Dreamer”, published by Graywolf Press in 1993.


Horns

I went to the edge of the wood
in the color of evening,
and rubbed with a piece of horn
against a tree,
believing the great, dark moose
would come, his eyes
on fire with the moon.

I fell asleep in an old white tent.
The October moon rose,
and down a wide, frozen stream
the moose came roaring,
hoarse with rage and desire.

I awoke and stood in the cold
as he slowly circled the camp.
His horns exploded in the brush
with dry trees cracking
and falling; his nostrils flared
as swollen-necked, smelling
of challenge, he stalked by me.

I called him back, and he came
and stood in the shadow
not far away, and gently rubbed
his horns against icy willows.
I heard him breathing softly.
Then with a faint sigh of warning
soundlessly he walked away.

I stood there in the moonlight,
and the darkness and silence
surged back, flowing around me,
full of a wild enchantment,
as though a god had spoken.

Denali Road

By the Denali road, facing
north, a battered chair
in which nothing but the wind
was sitting.
And farther on
toward evening, an old man
with a vague smile,
his rifle rusting in his arms.

The Rain Glass

A winter morning, and the sea
breaks on the harbor wall.

Rain moves up the lonely street
under swaying wires,
blowing across the empty playground;
the air smells
of metal, kelp, and tar.

I hear the thrashing of leaves
against these windows;
the house is cold,
but the shifting glare of a fire
shines on wet asphalt.

Chairs, forms of silent people;
faces blurred in the clouding
of many small mirrors.

I wait in the doorway of a room
with grey walls and distant pictures.

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