Current Reading List

I read a lot of outdoor books, most notably by Jon Krakauer and Ed Viesturs.  Expeditions to the mountains, the success and the failures, have always fascinated me and kept certain dreams alive, and provided material for writing.  What I find lacking to a degree, is the more personal inner struggle, and the spiritual awakening that can arise from the human seeking a higher place next to nature, the being pushed to limits where we become our true self.

I see this in great detail and depth in the books by Reinhold Messner.  His book “The Crystal Horizon” is about the first solo ascent of Mount Everest in 1980 and is steeped with raw emotion, the body and mind punished, and the spirit set free.

Other books I am currently reading by Mr. Messner:

  1. My Life at the Limit
  2. The Naked Mountain
  3. All Fourteen 8,000ers

Technology – Windows 10 Build 9926

Finally jumping into the fray and trying out Windows 10. I have build 9926 running as a VM in VMware Workstation 11.1. Installed with the following specifications for testing.  This build does not have Spartan installed but that will be my next task.

Windows 10 Pro Technical Preview (Build 9926)

  1. Firmware Type: BIOS
  2. Processors
    1. Number: 1
    2. Cores: 2
  3. Memory: 8192
  4. Network Type: Use bridged networking
  5. I/O Controller Type: LSI Logic SAS
  6. Disk Type: SCSI
  7. Disk: Create a new virtual disk
  8. Disk Capacity
    1. 60 GB
    2. Split virtual disk into multiple files
  9. Disk file: Windows 10 x64.vmdk

Poem – Place

I was not meant to be in this place, at this time.
Distant fields of clover and Indian grass fold
into itself as mountains rise
from the virgin earth and we are witness
to the changing landscape, to the dawn of a new era.

The relative nature of space and time
the fluctuations bring me closer and
further at the same moment to the
true being, the being within struggling
to break free struggling to catch
the first and last breath.

Which version of myself decided
this was the place for me?

Which version of myself cast
shadows across ice fields
hunkered down beneath
overhanging ice and the
first ray of light across
the crystal horizon,
the peak near?

Which place is real
and which place do I belong within?

Poem – What is Meant to Be

The day’s chaos subsides
as the wind carries my worries away
and the trees wrap their limbs around me,
I close my eyes and the mountains appear.

The day’s battle and the outcome set
I relinquish the inner turmoil to the stars
as I cross tundra and rivers
setting up camp at the foot of the mountain.

What the mind seeks
what the body needs
what the soul requires
what the being is meant to be

is there, is here
as a murder of ravens
passes overhead
leading you to the empty fields.

Poem – What Sees in the Dark

Sliver of gradient orange into purple.
The forest stands tall merging with the sky.
Cold breath.
We listen to distant owls, we watch for the coyotes.

New Music

Some recent music, delving into new music and artists, as well as favorites, including a release by Hildur Gudnadottir, one of my favorite Icelandic musicians.

  1. Seven Lions - Worlds Apart (2014)
  2. Seven Lions - The Throes of Winter (2015)
  3. Celldweller – End of an Empire (Chapter 03: Dreams) (2015)
  4. Celldweller – Transmissions: Volume 01 (2014)
  5. Porter Robinson - Worlds (2014)
  6. Hildur Gudnadottir - Saman (2014)
  7. Shigeto – No Better Time Than Now (2013)
  8. Eraldo Bernocchi, Harold Budd, Robin Guthrie - Winter Garden (2011)
  9. Animattronic – Pirates of the Galaxy (2015)

Poem – Winter into Spring

As winter becomes spring
and ponds become home to wildlife
and the ground reaches for the sky,

thoughts turn to distant lands
north of the arctic circle
surrounded by mountains

and tundra home to herds
of caribou and the midnight
sun above snow-capped peaks.

Poem – When

I cry slow tears when –

the raven filled sky descends upon the earth.
the sun settles between bare branches.
the moon takes over watch.
the stars paint the night sky.

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Poem – Matter

Sitting on the warm patio
the afternoon sun is calm
and soothing.

The wind from the north
is strong and cool –
we shade our eyes.

The grass recently lost its
cover and the yard is brown
and crunches beneath dog’s feet.

The sky is blue and
filled with black wings –
we watch ravens take over

the tallest tree on the hill
and in the quiet moments
with the two puppies

I am content and I remember
my place here within the matter
and I know what matters most.

Poem – Into the Sky…

We gaze from the wet earth
from the snow piles and appreciate
the warm sun and the wind through pine
masking distant city sounds.

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Poem – Transition

The first day of March and we
walk through the thin snow
covered trails and off the
path into the woods.

The winter sky keeps no
secrets but the wind
teases of spring and
the reemergence of life.

Winter to Spring

Winter to Spring