(1)
When evening light
scatters across the horizon
hidden behind the treeline
moving to the wind and
free of clouds, the orange
disk fills my eyes with
a field neither land nor sea
but made of light and our
feet walk gently upon this,
though I do not see you
my hand holds something
and from that I know you are here.
(2)
Back, years before this final moment,
I swam alone in an ocean of black water
with waves constantly throwing my
body between waves.
I caught glimpses of you in the
distance but I did not know how
far and I did not think I was ready
so I let you go, freed of the bonds,
and in my thinking gave you a
better life beyond here.
(3)
I awoke the next day caught again
between relief and panic.
(4)
Each year I think about you
and what might have been
what could have been
what my life would look like.
(5)
Each year pain and acceptance
filled my vision until I decided to let you go.
Guilt hung around for a while longer
until it too decided to let go.
(6)
18-years have passed and I see your
face in my dreams, in the setting sun
and the rising moon, in the still water
of the river flowing out to the sea.
4 responses to “Poem – Untitled #2”
Sliding doors, a life that might of been. But we must not waste what we have never had. Great poem again full of emotion! xx
Thank you, and very true. These things surface for reasons I do not know or understand, and writing them out, getting them onto paper helps to not hold onto them. It sets them free and I can continue to move on.
Very beautiful. I just got lost in the imagination.
Thank you for the kind words.